Mary's name in the sand

http://namesinthesand.blogspot.com/2008/10/mary-beth-chapman.html

Carly is so sweet to write the names of our angel babies in the sand. This has become her family's full time project. Thank you Carly!!!

Mary's name in the sand

http://namesinthesand.blogspot.com/2008/10/mary-beth-chapman.html

Carly is so sweet to write the names of our angel babies in the sand. This has become her family's full time project. Thank you Carly!!!

I hate holidays

Driving to my dad's house yesterday, I couldn't help but notice all the halloween and harvest stuff out. Not to mention, I think I have hit my anger stage in a major way. I am pissed that my daughter is in a cemetary and not here. Last year we got to dream about taking our 6 kids trick or treating and have our little baby all dressed up. Now, there's no baby to dress up. There will never be anything. I hate living this life, I really do. Seeing holiday stuff depresses me. I'm usually gung ho about christmas too. Now, I could care less if it got celebrated or not. Our driving around looking at lights around christmas time doesn't sound like it use to. I have ZERO interest in holidays or celebrations. If I could hole up in my room and never come out again, I would. I feel like I just hate everything right now. It's nice doing even family stuff, but, it doesn't feel the same anymore. I hate what that midwife has done to my life. Midwives are not always safer or better!! I hate that I fell for that BS.