Life Is Crazy!!

          I am so sorry to of neglected this blog! I really need to get on the ball and post regularly, but this past month and a half have been absolutely insane.

          Mary's birthday is in exactly a month. As much as I try to not think about it, it's still right there. Mother's day is Sunday, and that's usually when I begin my downward spiral. I thought that after these years it wouldn't cause so much trepidation, but apparently I'm not there yet. Maybe one day. No matter what I'm feeling, I'm still going to put a smile on my face and continue living. I'm more than just a loss/angel/dead baby mom. You know, without this little girl, and everything that happened I wouldn't be where I am. She has helped shape my life in so many ways.

          School: So far, in English, I have an A. I'm still waiting to get two grades back, but it shouldn't be an issue. I majorly kicked butt in that class. That class has led me to change my major to Technical Communications. Writing is my hobby and I can be passionate about it. My Research Paper ended up with a 100% in a class where the average was much lower than that. I'm hoping to publish my paper here. It still needed a few extra touches, in my opinion, but that's ok! In my Math class, I am actually almost completely done with everything. How it's set up is you have 4 mods per class with each class lasting 8 weeks. Well, I managed to get so far ahead that I will end up receiving credit for additional classes since I've done two semesters worth of work in one, which will eliminate the need to pay for and take these extra classes. I never would of pictured myself doing this and doing it so well! I've received straight A's!! Come fall, I'm buckling down and going to school full time since all six of my children will be in school.

          Lastly, I'm going to start a small blog detailing my adventures with the reward sites I'm on. It would help having some actual experiences out there when looking at these programs. I'll put up a link when I do it, but it will likely not be for a couple weeks.

School and Kids

   

     I'm in my seventh week of school and slowly questioning my sanity! It seems as though my perceptions of how my classes would go were wrong. I figured I would ace English Composition and completely fail at Pre-Algebra. English Comp has shown me that I still have quite a bit to master where writing is concerned and it's kind of tough! The math, I'm blowing that out of the water and am way past where I need to be. I'm pretty impressed with myself! I did register for some summer classes (10 credit hours, to be exact), but still need to get everything that entails squared away.

     I've noticed that trying to juggle everything has left me pretty frazzled and semi anti-social. It's not incredibly fun. I'm lucky in the fact that I do have two teens (almost three) that can help watch younger siblings when the husband isn't home. Dinner can be ready to go in the crockpot, so everyone gets fed. My kids, thank goodness, are highly intelligent and have been able to help me grasp some of the math I've had to re-learn. It's amazing what these kids are learning these days!

     I have a new found respect for parents who work and go to school. It's a lot to juggle! This also shows my children the benefits of waiting to have children until you have an education and a career. As parents, we always want better for our kids and you never want them to struggle. I want them to have it easier than we did and they know it. I guess that's one of the benefits to having older kids that are here to see and learn. It won't be an old story, it'll be our story.