I want to share something sweet

Just yesterday, I jumped feet first into this project after sitting on it for a bit. Do I know what I'm doing?? Nope, not at all. That's ok though.

As I was out driving somewhere with the kids, we were listening to the radio. A song came on that I hadn't heard in a while. I knew in my heart that it was a sign from my daughter. The words really hit me.

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And a dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
It has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance that tide
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll tke soome falls
With the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Lord, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

I will continue on my journey and do what I need to do. I'm going to sail this vessel and follow where it goes. I have learned from what's behind me. I never know what's in store, Each day is a constant battle. Being unsure of my religious leanings, I know I can rely on something higher than myself to help me make it through everything. I like to think my daughter is helping me. I could of just accepted that babies die and never stepped out. It was brave to do that, incredibly brave. We deal with the rapids daily but continue on. If we don't try, we'll never reach our destination. So, we will keep trying.

To top off our little road trip, we had a white butterfly come flying by us when we got out of the van. After she died, our yard was descended upon by white butterflies. Everywhere we went, there were white butterflies. We see them as a sign from her! Her headstone also has a butterfly and a good majority of her decorations are also butterflies!

Next tattoo- A sailing scene, but it will have to have a butterfly for Mary!

I want to share something sweet

Just yesterday, I jumped feet first into this project after sitting on it for a bit. Do I know what I'm doing?? Nope, not at all. That's ok though.

As I was out driving somewhere with the kids, we were listening to the radio. A song came on that I hadn't heard in a while. I knew in my heart that it was a sign from my daughter. The words really hit me.

You know a dream is like a river
Ever changin' as it flows
And a dreamer's just a vessel
That must follow where it goes
Trying to learn from what's behind you
And never knowing what's in store
Makes each day a constant battle
Just to stay between the shores
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Too many times we stand aside
And let the waters slip away
'Til what we put off 'til tomorrow
It has now become today
So don't you sit upon the shoreline
And say you're satisfied
Choose to chance the rapids
And dare to dance that tide
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
There's bound to be rough waters
And I know I'll tke soome falls
With the good Lord as my captain
I can make it through them all
And I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Like a bird upon the wind
These waters are my sky
I'll never reach my destination
If I never try
So I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry
Lord, I will sail my vessel
'Til the river runs dry

I will continue on my journey and do what I need to do. I'm going to sail this vessel and follow where it goes. I have learned from what's behind me. I never know what's in store, Each day is a constant battle. Being unsure of my religious leanings, I know I can rely on something higher than myself to help me make it through everything. I like to think my daughter is helping me. I could of just accepted that babies die and never stepped out. It was brave to do that, incredibly brave. We deal with the rapids daily but continue on. If we don't try, we'll never reach our destination. So, we will keep trying.

To top off our little road trip, we had a white butterfly come flying by us when we got out of the van. After she died, our yard was descended upon by white butterflies. Everywhere we went, there were white butterflies. We see them as a sign from her! Her headstone also has a butterfly and a good majority of her decorations are also butterflies!

Next tattoo- A sailing scene, but it will have to have a butterfly for Mary!

Facebook page created

The page is called SafEST Homebirth. I should be able to get a blog up and going here very soon and will place the link here and on Safest's wall. So, join up, and tell others. Let's show people that safe homebirth practices are important. No more of this every woman can do it, everything is "a variation of normal", uneducated midwives know everything and are to be desired (*gah*) crap. It's still odd for me that I've come full circle almost. I know this idea may not be popular amongst others, but, I'm willing to put myself out there. Oh, we won't support midwives who negligently take lives and sure as heck aren't going to blame parents!! If you are a CNM or CM, please join up, I would love to have you there! Let's see if we can't blow these other blogs/pages out of the water.

Here is The new blog!